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Pain

Song Info – Quick Overview

“Abyss” is a dark, intense song about living with a chronic illness — about constant exhaustion, physical limitations, and the mental pressure that comes with it.
It tells the story of the daily invisibility of this struggle: of people who judge you even though they see nothing, who assume you’re lazy or just exaggerating.

Musically, the track blends post-hardcore and emo rap into an emotional soundscape filled with pain and truth.
“Abyss” is not a song about giving up —
it’s a song about honesty.
About continuing, even when it hurts.

💀 Welcome to the Abyss.

Lyrics

Verse 1

I wake up broken, never whole
Trapped in da body I can’t control
They say I look fine, well maybe I do
But inside I’m screaming, black and blue
No rest at night, no peace at day
Pain’s my shadow, won’t go away
Each breath I take feels like defeat
While others run, I drag my feet

Pre-Chorus

They don’t see the war inside
The silent screams I always hide
Tryna smile, but I just pretend
Wishing this torment would end

Chorus

This is my abyss, no light, no sound
Where hope gets lost and dreams break down
I fight to breathe, I fight to stand
But life just slips right through my hands
I watch them fly while I still drown
This is my world, this is my crown
Don’t call me weak, don’t call it bliss
I live, I break, inside the abyss

Verse 2

Started the race, same starting gun
But my feet were tied while they all run
Sinking deep in a swamp of pain
Every step forward just circles the drain
Tried to match their perfect pace
But I’m stuck in a darker place
They call me lazy, call me fake
Wish they’d feel the toll I take

Bridge

Neon smiles on hollow nights
Jealous of their simple fights
I don’t want fame, don’t want gold
Just to live without this cold
Is that too much for a soul like mine
To just feel normal, once in time

Final Chorus

This is my abyss, no end in sight
Where the strongest hope still dies at night
I scream unheard, I break, I bend
Still wish for peace I can’t defend
If life’s a gift, then mine’s a curse
A quiet hell in every verse
But I hold on with broken fists
Still breathing deep inside the abyss

Behind the Words – Background & Meaning

“Abyss” was created from the experience of living with a chronic illness — one that weakens the body, limits your life, and yet often remains invisible.
Many who suffer from it don’t only struggle with the symptoms themselves, but also with the lack of acceptance from others — with prejudice, misunderstanding, and the constant need to explain why they can’t “function” like healthy people do.

With this song, I wanted to express what it feels like to be trapped in a body that keeps failing you,
while the outside world judges instead of understanding.

“Abyss” is not a cry for pity.
It is a commitment to truth:
to a life that continues despite pain and exhaustion.
A song for everyone whose struggle no one sees —
and who still keeps breathing.

Song Info – Quick Overview

“Worthless” is a raw, uncompromising song about humiliation, body-shaming, and the fight for self-respect.
It tells the story of the pain of being judged, mocked, or shamed — all because of your body.
But instead of hiding, this song represents the moment you stand up and say:
“You don’t get to decide my worth.”

Musically, “Worthless” blends furious emo rap with emotional vocals and honest vulnerability.
It speaks to everyone who has ever been humiliated, ridiculed, or diminished —
and reminds us that true strength lies in taking yourself back.

Lyrics

Intro

Why do you laugh when someone breaks?
Why feel strong when it’s someone else who aches?
Who are you… without someone beneath you?

Verse 1

You judge my body, but don’t see the pain
Mocking my weight while hiding your shame
Could be a sickness, could be my mind
Could be comfort, or trauma I hide

You whisper and giggle when I walk by
But your words cut deeper than any lie
You act like kings with perfect form
But your soul’s so cold, far from warm

Chorus

I’m not your puppet – don’t pull my strings
I’m not your circus – I don’t dance or sing
I’m not your toy – not here for your fun
I’m not your platform – don’t stand on my lungs
I’m not your clown – for your twisted thrill
I’m not your outlet – I won’t take your spill
I’m not your mirror – to make you feel tall
I’m not your victim – I rise from the fall
You call me worthless – but your words are worth even less

Verse 2

You laugh when I move, call it a joke
But that’s just your fear behind all the smoke
You pick on me so you don’t feel small
But deep inside, you fear the fall

You grab my body like I’m not real
Laughing out loud like it’s no big deal
Crossing my lines with dirty hands
Pretending it’s normal – you don’t understand

Bridge

I carry you so you don’t drown
But who lifts me when I go down
Your silence cuts like sharpened knives
And no one asks how I survive

Final Chorus

I’m not your puppet – I won’t be used
I’m not your clown – I’m not amused
I’m not your ladder – to make you rise
I’m not your target – I see through lies
I’m not your fix – when you feel weak
I’m not your voice – when you can’t speak
I’m not your mask – I won’t pretend
I’m not your burden – I won’t bend
You call me worthless – but your words are worth even less

Outro

Maybe one day, you’ll be in my place
And you’ll wish someone saw your face
But no one will
Not then

Behind the Words – Background & Meaning

“Worthless” was born from the pain of being judged for your appearance — from experiencing how cruel people can be when you don’t fit their idea of what you “should” look like.
Many don’t understand how deeply words and looks can cut.
They see only weight, but not the story behind it —
not the illness, the limitations, the shame, or the emotional burden.

The song stands against mockery, bullying, and a superficial society.
It speaks for everyone who has ever stood on the stage of humiliation —
who has been laughed at, diminished, or treated as if they were “less.”

“Worthless” is not a victim’s tale — it is the reclaiming of dignity.
It says:
👉 I am not your outlet for hatred.
👉 I am not your target for mockery.
👉 I am human — with worth, with feeling, with pride.

Because anyone who tears others down only reveals how empty they are inside.

Song Info – Quick Overview

“Empty” is a dark, honest ballad about depression, emotional numbness, and the feeling of breaking inside while the world keeps moving.
The song captures the quiet moments when joy fades, colors disappear, and you can barely feel yourself anymore — when you smile on the outside but fight on the inside.

Blending melancholic rap with vulnerable vocals, “Empty” expresses the sense of no longer belonging — trapped between overwhelm, exhaustion, and numbness.
It’s not a song about giving up, but about surviving in silence.

💫 You are not alone in your depression.

Lyrics

Intro

Empty room, empty mind
Nothing left, nothing to find
Just a whisper in the night
Gone before it touches light

Verse 1

Joy strikes like lightning in the dark
One second bright, then leaves no mark
You wonder later if it was real
Just a flicker you could barely feel
Guilt and shame, no place to hide
Worthless thoughts that crawl inside
Can’t focus, can’t eat, can’t sleep
Just falling down into the deep

Pre-Chorus

Every wall becomes a cage
I’m a prisoner of my own pain
In this maze with no escape
Just echoes screaming in my brain

Chorus

Empty, that’s all I ever feel
Like nothing’s true, like nothing’s real
I’m hollow, fading piece by piece
Begging for the noise to cease

Verse 2

Smiles are masks I wear each day
So you won’t ask if I’m okay
I laugh so you won’t see the fight
But inside I’m dying every night
Memories cut like shards of glass
I hide behind a fragile mask
You think I’m strong, you think I cope
I’m tangled in a fraying rope

Pre-Chorus

Every breath becomes a war
Every step just hurts me more
No light, no sound, no hand to hold
Just numbness crawling through my soul

Chorus

Empty, that’s all I ever feel
Like nothing’s true, like nothing’s real
I’m hollow, fading piece by piece
Begging for the noise to cease

Bridge

Tried to scream but lost my voice
Tried to fight but had no choice
Tried to heal but stayed the same
Now I only feel the shame

Final Chorus

Empty, like a void inside my chest
A silent scream that won’t find rest
No hope, no flame, no final plea
Just this broken shell of me

Behind the Words – Background & Meaning

“Empty” was created from the attempt to not just describe depression, but to make it feel real — that state between pain and numbness where you exist, yet barely live.
The song shows how people keep functioning, wearing masks, smiling, making jokes — while quietly falling apart inside.

I wanted to write a song that is honest — without softening it, without romanticizing it.
Because depression isn’t a sad moment; it’s a condition that swallows everything: energy, hope, connection.

“Empty” is for everyone who fights every day without anyone noticing.
For those who lose themselves but keep going anyway.
It’s meant to offer comfort, because even in emptiness, a heart is still beating —
and that alone is a sign of strength.

Song Info – Quick Overview

“Heartbreak” is a raw, deeply emotional emo-rap track about unrequited love, broken trust, and the pain that comes when something fragile finally shatters.
The song captures the moment when hope dissolves and silence becomes louder than words — when messages go unanswered, closeness turns into memory, and you find yourself caught between longing and self-doubt.

With melancholic melodies, honest lyrics, and a blend of vulnerable singing and intense rap sections, “Heartbreak” tells the story of a love that never truly began — and the courage it takes to speak the hurt out loud.

💔 For everyone who knows what it feels like to love — and to break because of it.

Lyrics

Intro

I let my guard down
Hoped someone would see me
But silence was louder
Than anything I ever feared

Verse 1

I gave my heart without disguise
No filters no lies just truth in my eyes
But love it cut like a razor blade
Left me bleeding where I stood unafraid
Told her how I felt voice shaking
Thought she’d care she laughed while I was breaking
Now I wear my shame like a second skin
And wonder why I let her in

Verse 2

They say love makes you whole
But it took pieces I’ll never get back
Now I’m just this echo of myself
A shadow where the light once cracked
Each night I fold into my pillow tight
Pretending it’s someone holding me right

Chorus

All I ever gave was love
All I ever got was heartbreak
No reply no reason why
Just silence wrapped in heartache
I talk to ghosts that never lived
Sleep beside the space you never filled
And every night I break again
From promises no one ever willed

Verse 3

We were never lovers never even close
But damn I built a future from a maybe and a post
Scrolling through your feed imagining the sound
Of your voice saying my name
But you never turned around
I’m not angry just tired of this game
Of giving myself to a face with no name
I just wanted real not fame not lust
Just someone to hold someone to trust

Bridge 1

I see them smile hand in hand
While I dissolve like castle sand
Not jealous no
Just aching to feel like I matter

Verse 4

She said nothing but that hurt more
Than if she’d slammed my soul through a closing door
The silence was cruel it echoed loud
In a room full of hopes that I’d built too proud
Why do I always fall for the ones
Who leave me unread and undone

Verse 5

And me
I get messages by the hundreds each day
Most of them crude fake or grey
I stopped hoping stopped replying
Behind my screen my soul is crying
I crave something deep but it drowns in noise
As if all they see is curves not voice
So I stay quiet I shut the door
I can’t take being just one more

Bridge 2

You think I have it easy
But I can’t even trust a smile
Every word feels poisoned
Every glance a trial

Chorus

Verse 6

I was in a relationship too once
Gave her my all every piece every ounce
She took and took and I gave more
Till my soul curled up on the floor
Told myself it’s just a phase
But love shouldn’t feel like slow decay
Even when she hit me I stayed
Thought I could fix her pain that way

Verse 7

Some wounds don’t bleed they rot inside
You smile in public but at home you hide
Lie awake beside a body
That feels colder than goodbye

Bridge 3

I cry at night not loudly
But into a pillow that pretends to be someone
The pain strips me down
Until even my soul feels exposed

Final Chorus

All I ever gave was love
All I ever got was heartbreak
Built a world from quiet hope
And watched it burn with no escape
I talk to ghosts that never lived
Sleep beside the space you never filled
And every night I break again
From promises I dreamed alone that shattered like my skin

Outro

This ain’t love
This is heartbreak
And it lives where no one looks

Behind the Words – Background & Meaning

“Heartbreak” is more than just a song about lost love — it’s a glimpse into the emotional emptiness that follows disappointment, misuse, and unfulfilled longing.
It speaks about trust that was broken, intimacy that was only an illusion, and people who give until there is nothing left of them.

The song reveals two perspectives —
the man who loves, hopes, and loses,
and the woman who is wounded herself, hiding behind a wall of mistrust.
Both struggle with the same fears: not being enough, being used, or ending up alone again.

“Heartbreak” is a quiet dialogue between two lost souls in a loud world —
an honest confession that love doesn’t always heal, and sometimes leaves scars deeper than words.
And yet, something human remains:
the desire to love again, despite everything.

Song Info – Quick Overview

“Gone” is a deeply emotional song about grief, loss, and the emptiness that remains when someone you love is no longer there.
The track blends emo rap and dark trap with a softly haunting atmosphere — a mix of pain, longing, and the quiet hope that memories can reach beyond death.

It speaks about the fear of losing someone forever, about the things that remain, and about a love that has no ending.
“Gone” is not a song about death —
it’s a song about holding on, about memories that continue to live,
and about the strength it takes to keep breathing through the silence.

💫 Gone — but never forgotten.

Lyrics

Verse 1

There are nights the memories flood, crashing over me like waves
I’m reaching for your shadow, but it’s something I can’t save
Your voice once clear, now fades into the static in my mind
Like a song that’s drowned in echoes, leaving only ghosts behind
I fear the day I cannot hear the melody you made
When it blends into the background, where all the other noises fade
I close my eyes, try to hold on, but the sound slips further still
A fragile thread between our worlds that time is set to kill

Verse 2

I keep the things you left behind, not just for the pain they hold
They’re pieces of your story, fragments of a soul gone cold
The watch you wore, the notes you wrote, the marks your hands once made
I hold them close, afraid to lose the memories they’ve saved
Not for their scent, but because they once were touched by you
Carried, worn, or used in the life you knew
Each touch, each trace, a tether I refuse to sever
The last thin thread that says you’re here, and here forever

Chorus

I’m holding on, but you slip like sand through my hands
No matter how I grasp, I can’t change where this stands
You’re gone, and the world feels colder than before
Every echo fades, and I’m reaching for more
I’m holding on, but the night pulls you away
I’m screaming at the dark, but it won’t let you stay
You’re gone, and the truth cuts deep to the bone
Left here in the silence, facing it alone

Verse 3

There are days I break in moments, like a dam that’s giving way
A sight, a word, a fleeting scent can drag me back that day
When all I feel is longing, this hunger to just hold you near
To wrap my arms around you, like the last time you were here
And in the stillness after tears, when no more will fall down
There’s a heavy, aching quiet that wraps itself around
My eyes are swollen, my vision blurred, my head a pounding drum
And I walk with lowered gaze so they won’t see what I’ve become

Verse 4

There are words I never spoke, and some I wish I could take back
Moments I should’ve given more, now lost along the track
It’s not regret that chains me, but the truth I can’t replace
That the time we had is over, no more moments to embrace
If I could see you once again, I’d fill the space with all I missed
Every word I should have said, every touch, each fleeting kiss
But now I speak into the air, hoping somehow you can hear
Though silence is the only thing that ever answers here

Bridge

I see you in the quiet rooms, a shadow in my mind
A movie only I can watch, where you’re frozen in rewind
Some days I want to see it, to feel you close again
Some days it cuts so deeply, it’s a mercy when it ends
And underneath it all there’s fear, the question left unknown
Will I ever see you, or is this truly all I’m shown?

Chorus

Outro

Gone… and the years keep counting on
Gone… but the ache is never gone
Gone… like the sun that won’t return
Gone… yet the fire still burns

Behind the Words – Background & Meaning

“Gone” is the most personal piece I’ve ever written.
I created this song to cope with my own grief — to find a way to process the loss of my parents, whom I lost within just two years.

The song describes the pain you’re forced to live with when the people who meant everything to you suddenly aren’t there anymore.
Over time, you realize how memories begin to fade:
first the sound of their voice,
then certain moments,
sometimes even their smile.
And that becomes the greatest fear — losing someone a second time through forgetting, after already losing them once in reality.

“Gone” is my attempt to hold on to that inner struggle — the need to preserve what time slowly takes away.
You can’t create new memories anymore, and the old ones blur no matter how hard you fight against it.

At the beginning of our lives, we take everything for granted.
Our parents, family, friends, relatives, the small everyday conversations, the shared laughter.
We don’t realize how precious memories are, because we can create new ones every single day.
But when you lose someone you love and no new moments can ever be made again,
you suddenly understand how valuable every memory was — and how many of them you’ve already forgotten.
What once felt ordinary becomes priceless.

With that realization comes regret —
regret for words you said and wish you could take back,
for gestures you never made,
for everything you didn’t express while there was still time.
You wish you could apologize,
say “I love you” one more time,
show them again how much they meant to you.

The song also asks what comes after death —
whether there is a reunion, or whether the farewell is final.
No one knows how much time we ourselves have left,
and everyone experiences loss differently,
but the pain of having to continue living while a piece of you is missing is something we all share.

I hope that everyone who listens to this song realizes how fragile life is —
that you shouldn’t take people for granted,
but use every moment to create love, closeness, and peace.
If there is conflict or misunderstanding, make peace while you can.
Because when death comes, there is no second chance to make things right.

I was fortunate enough to part with my parents on good terms, even though I made mistakes I regret.
Many others never get that chance.
“Gone” is a reminder that every day with the people we love is a gift — one we should never take for granted.

It is a song about love, memory, regret — and awareness.
And about the truth that sometimes you only realize how precious something was
when it is gone forever.